Wow, ok, so that had
happened. Karine definitely wasn’t high
anymore and was kind of embarrassed about the way she’d acted with Terry. She had two options, find him and act like
nothing had ever happened, or find him and make sure they were still cool. Or find Janice and get high again.
“How often
do you do this stuff?” she asked Janice, who was back in the kitchen doing
another line.
“Just on
the weekends,” Janice shrugged. “You
want more?”
Karine
wondered if she was already addicted after just one hit. She definitely wanted more because being on
cocaine had made her feel better than she ever had in her entire life but she
didn’t want to become like Janice, who didn’t seem capable of having a good
time without the stuff. Was she ever not
high?
“No, I’m
ok,” said Karine, walking off to find Terry.
She would limit herself to doing it at parties, and only if Terry would
do it with her, and only if it was someone else’s stuff. She wasn’t about to waste money on it and end
up like one of those people on Dr. Drew’s rehab show.
“You’re
coming down,” said Terry as she joined him outside. He passed her his cigarette and she took a
drag.
“Yeah,
sorry I was being all weird.”
“It’s ok,
it was funny.”
“Sorry I
said bitchy things about your one true love.”
Terry
laughed. “It’s all good.”
“But for
real though, you can stay here. I think
it’ll be more convenient than staying at Cerise’s.”
“You want
me to?” he asked with so much pity that Karine wanted to slap him.
“No!” she
laughed. “I mean I wouldn’t mind, but
I’m not actually like crying in my Corn-flakes every morning like all sad
‘cause I’m alone. I like having my
space.”
“If you
want me here you can say so Karine, you can be real with me.”
“Oh my god,
take out the tampon! Don’t do me any
favours, Terry, seriously.”
He sighed
and shook his head. “Ok.”
She was
glad it was dark out so he couldn’t see how embarrassed she was. “No, like, if you need a place to crash I’m
happy to help but this isn’t about me. I
mean like, what do you actually want?”
“Honestly,
I think I like staying at Cerise’s. I
mean in a way it’s torture.”
“’Cause you
wanna bone her so bad?” Karine snorted and wiped her nose, instantly wondering
if this was a side-effect of the cocaine.
“Yeah,”
Terry laughed. “Also ‘cause her little
sister is constantly around, always up in my shit. I mean she’s a cute kid but it’s like living
with Christina in her obsesso days.”
“Yeah, I
can see how that would be annoying as fuck,” chuckled Karine.
“But yeah,
I like being there. They’re like a real
family,” Terry shrugged. “They all eat
breakfast together. Well, I mean
sorta. They all have different schedules
so it’s not like they all sit there together for an hour but they all seem to
get along. No one yells at anyone.”
“I never
found your family to be particularly yelly.”
“Yeah, I
guess not. I guess I just want a
different family, that’s all.”
“Are you
gonna look for your real mom?”
“Well I
googled the name Bridget Thompson and there’s like a million of them.”
“Well we
could start with the ones in Quebec .”
“Yeah, I
guess.”
“You don’t
have to.”
“Yeah,
whatever. I don’t wanna think about this
shit tonight. My plan is to get
thoroughly wasted and then… I dunno, that’s pretty much my whole plan.”
“Let’s get
you some beer then,” Karine laughed, leading him back to the house.
“Oh my god,
that guy is seriously hot,” said Laura, who stood on the front porch with that
chick who’d been the playing card who wasn’t allowed to sing.
“Is he
single?” asked the playing card.
“No,”
replied Karine, entering the house.
Terry
wasn’t sure what to make of all that.
He’d totally just heard Karine telling some chick that he wasn’t
single. Was Karine into him? It sort of seemed like it sometimes. Was he into her? He could be.
He wanted Cerise but if she didn’t work out, it’s not like Karine would
be a bad consolation prize. She was
hotter than most movie-stars and was fun to hang out with. She could be mean though, especially to her
boyfriends. She always treated them like
lap-dogs, which was hilarious but Terry seriously didn’t want to become her
bitch.
He walked
into the kitchen and grabbed a couple beers from the fridge, turning around to
see Nick Morgan.
“Hey man,
what you doing here?”
“I know the
dude who played the King of Hearts.”
“Cool.” He handed his second beer to Nick and then
went back into the fridge for another, which he gave to Karine. “You know Karine.”
“Yeah, hey,
this your house, eh?”
“Yeah,”
Karine nodded, taking the beer Terry offered.
“Cool.”
They all
went into the living room and joined the gang.
Terry deliberately chose not to stand next to Cerise, because he didn’t
want to be too obvious about it but he smiled at her and she totally smiled
back. They were all watching Jay and his
stupid hair dance with Cassie and her extreme shortness. Was it Terry’s imagination or were they about
two seconds from getting down?
“Oh my god,
Cassie and Jay look like they’re two seconds from heading upstairs,” remarked
Karine.
“Isn’t she
with that Jojo guy?” asked Terry.
“Well
they’re just dancing,” said Cerise.
“Yeah
right,” said Sarah angrily. “He sure
doesn’t waste any time.”
“Are you
still into him?” asked Karine.
Sarah
simply mumbled something about needing a drink and walked away.
“I guess
she’s still into him,” confirmed Cerise.
“It’s too bad they had to break up.”
“I guess,”
said Karine. “So it doesn’t bother you,
Cerise? Seeing Jay all making time with
Cassie?”
“Why would
it bother me?” Her eyes darted towards
Terry, who pretended like he didn’t care about the answer.
“No
reason,” Karine shrugged.
Karine
waited for Terry and Nick to start talking about boring hockey shit and then
she subtly pulled Cerise aside. “So come
on, it seriously doesn’t bother you?
They’re practically humping each other.” She indicated Jay and Cassie,
who were seriously getting a bit gross.
“Well yeah,
I guess,” Cerise spoke so quietly Karine had to hunch over to hear her. “But that’s Jay. He’s always… going after girls who aren’t
me. But I mean, I can’t let that get to
me. I can’t live my whole life hoping
Jay will never get a girlfriend. I mean,
he has to have a life too.”
“But you
still like him, right?”
“Whatever. I mean I have a crush on Ryan Gosling too but
I’m not gonna freak out if he starts dating someone.”
“You’re
acting like Jay is unattainable, which he totally isn’t.”
“I don’t
give a shit about Jay!” Cerise protested too much. “I’m into Terry.”
“So you
admit you wanna get back with Terry?”
“Hello? You know I do. I mean it’s Terry. He’s awesome.
And he’s being so good about my sister, who’s like totally being a
freak, all hanging all over him and shit.
But he’s so nice. So not the jerky guy I thought he was in high school.”
Cerise
looked over at him with a disgustingly dreamy expression on her face and kept
babbling. “It’s so weird. I see it more clearly now that we’re not
together. I really regret not fully
giving myself to him.”
“You mean
not giving him your cerise?” Karine snarked.
“No,”
Cerise said in annoyance. “Giving
myself. Being completely open with
him. Back when it was his birthday I was
freaking out because I didn’t know what to get him. I thought we had nothing in common and that
we had no real connection but that wasn’t true at all. I just wasn’t looking right. I wasn’t seeing what was right there.”
Karine
really wanted to go find Janice and her coke ‘cause this conversation was
totally depressing. Cerise and Terry
obviously belonged together and she had the power to make that happen. She knew that they’d broken up because Terry
wouldn’t stop hanging out with the Asshole and Cerise had stupidly made that
some sort of ultimatum. It really pissed
her off, how she was somehow in the middle of their nauseating Bella and Edward
romance.
“So why
don’t you just get back with him then?” Karine asked with a touch of
bitterness.
“Cerise
shrugged and averted her eyes. “I
dunno. I guess there’s still an issue
that stands in the way.”
“And what
is that issue, Cerise?” Karine asked
with gritted teeth.
“Um, it’s
personal,” she replied vaguely.
God damn
her! Karine felt unreasonably angry and
she wasn’t even sure why. Was it because
she was jealous? Because she knew she’d
never get what she wanted? Because she’d
been unable to manipulate Cerise into hooking-up with Jay? Because Jay was such a fucking retard as to
go for every chick in the vicinity besides Cerise? Because Terry kept choosing Cerise over
her? Because she was lonely and couldn’t
connect to anyone besides Terry? Because
she wasn’t even sure if she really did connect with Terry? Because she worried she’d never be able to
connect with anyone ever again? Because
she thought maybe she’d never connected with anyone even before the Asshole
incident? Because the Asshole incident
had happened?
“Hey, how’s
my girls?” asked Terry, putting an arm around each of them.
“Your
girls?!” Karine snapped. “You make it
sound like we’re your concubines!”
Terry
stepped away and looked shocked. “You
ok?”
Karine took
a deep breath to calm herself down.
“Yeah I guess I’m still coming down.”
She wanted
to say so much more. She wanted to tell
them both off for being such idiots.
That if they wanted to be together they should just be together and
spare the rest of them the idiotic drama.
She wanted to tell them to just forget about each other because it was
making the rest of them sick and she wanted to yell at the entire world for
being boring and stupid and whatever.
Fuck!
Instead she
walked away and found Sarah sulking at the kitchen table. “You look like I feel.”
“You saw
him!”
“Terry?”
“Jay!”
whined Sarah. “We broke up like, two
seconds ago and already he’s flirting with someone else who meanwhile already
has a boyfriend so I don’t know what he’s thinking anyway!”
“You guys
broke up ages ago,” said Karine, trying not to sound bitchy about it, but
seriously, why did Sarah even care?
“Well, not
really.”
“Huh?”
“You’re
gonna think I’m a total bitch.” Sarah
lowered her voice.
“Why,
what?” Karine leaned towards her.
“We didn’t
actually um, break up back in February.”
“What?” This
could be juicy!
“Well we
did but then we got back together but in secret. We kept going out for like, another
month. But in secret.”
Drama! “Sarah, you little shit! And I didn’t even suspect!”
“Good. I hope Cerise and Karl didn’t suspect
either.”
“I doubt
it.”
“You know,
ironically it’s actually because of Cerise that we got back together.”
“Why,
what’d she do?” asked Karine with great interest.
“Well, according
to Jay, when he told her we broke up she like, encouraged him to like, follow
his heart. Apparently she was all like,
screw what everybody thinks, just do what makes you happy. I mean, isn’t that hilarious? She totally has a thing for him but she cared
enough to put her own feelings aside for his benefit. I mean, that’s real love. That’s real affection. To like, not be selfish. And I went ahead and kept going out with him
in secret ‘cause I am selfish. I wish I could be more like her.”
“Oh
gross. She just didn’t want Jay ‘cause
she wants Terry more.”
“Yeah, we
all want Terry more, but still,” insisted Sarah. “I mean you saw her out there. Like you could see it in her eyes when she
was watching Jay groping Cassie. Like
she was totally hurt but she didn’t say anything. She just accepted it. It’s like… noble.”
“Oh
please!” Karine scoffed.
“Well
anyway, whatever,” Sarah shrugged. “I
guess I’m just feeling sorry for myself ‘cause I want a boyfriend. You wouldn’t know what it’s like.”
“Why
wouldn’t I know what it’s like?” Karine asked in confusion.
“’Cause you
have guys falling all over you all the time!
You know how many times guys have come on to me? Try none.
I’ve always had to make the first move.
It’s exhausting!”
“It’s not
like the guys who are into me are quality guys.”
“Yeah well,
who is a quality guy?” asked Sarah bitterly.
“Terry?”
“Yeah, I
always thought you guys would get together,” said Sarah, leaning her head on
her hands.
“But he
only has eyes for Cerise.”
“They’re so
cute together,” Sarah smiled.
“I guess.”
“You don’t
think so? I mean they both seem so happy
when they’re together. I totally don’t
get why they keep breaking up.”
“Yeah,”
Karine nodded. “So let’s say you liked a
guy but knew he liked someone else and you knew the someone else liked him
back. And you knew you could get them
together by just sort of revealing something.
Would you get them together or would you try to get the guy for
yourself?”
“Well
that’s just it, eh?” said Sarah. “If I
liked the guy I’d want to see him happy, right?
‘Cause only a selfish bitch would try to get the guy for herself,
right?”
“Right,”
Karine nodded sadly.
“Yeah, so
I’d totally try to get the guy for myself.”
“Yeah, me
too,” chuckled Karine.
“I mean I
should be happy for Jay that Cassie is apparently into him. But I’m pissed. I broke up with him and yet here I am
thinking about how to get him back, and screw Cassie and screw Cerise!”
“Yeah,
seriously,” Karine sighed. “We’re
bitches.”
“Yeah,”
Sarah nodded sadly.
Karine got
them each a beer from the fridge and they clinked their bottles together,
toasting to bitchitude.
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